Day 1

Today is Day 1.

I started a 50-day self-identity script writing class/challenge this morning. For 50 days, I will write the same script, over and over, that articulates the future I envision for myself. I will write in the present tense, trying to embody the vision as a reality, similar to how you’d write if you were trying to manifest something…probably because that’s what it is, in a nutshell.

Manifesting.

Changing your thoughts and beliefs, to change your actions, which change your outcomes.

Dreaming something into being.

It sounds like hooey.

I can’t be sure, but I think there’s something to it.

I’ve done some of this work with my coach in the past, and surprisingly, it’s been effective (in my professional life, anyway). It definitely takes upkeep, though, and I am not always the best at continuous practice. I’m hopeful that the online community of women I’m doing this particular challenge with will help keep me accountable. I had to get back on Facebook to join the group, for f*^ck’s sake, so you know I’m committed.

Today is another Day 1.

My husband and I had our first marriage counseling session.

I’m used to therapy, he’s never done it before.

I was 85% honest and vulnerable. I had a hard time gauging him.

He said he was proud of me, of who I’ve become over the last 22 years we’ve been together. I didn’t know that.

I cried. Ok fine, I cried more than once.

We have homework.

I already did mine and turned it back in.